I cant help feeling like a complete **** up and I've ****** up a lot of things in my life. I'm constantly tortured by a sense of failure. I feel like quitting all the time.
It's this constant feeling of not having achieved enough. The desire to feel like i am not a loser drives me. I don't know if that's the healthiest thing—to be motivated by a fear of hating yourself. But it definitely helps. In a perfect world I would overcome the sense that I suck constantly.
I wish i could just skate by in life but i for what ever reason just cant do it. For me i have to push my self to be better or improve in some way .
I am Really Trying To Stay Positive and up beat but in the back of my mind i feel like i need to step it up.
My job sucks and it a dead end job. I also feel like have not reach my potential as a man.
So i decided it time to step it up and went back to college to do some thing worth wild . I want to be a physical therapist assistant.
it was been hard so far but i want this more then anything right now.
Also ther is this Well i did not date in high school i was very shy and had social anxiety and did not have many friends. I went to college and dated a few girls but did not hit it off. I finished college and did not date for a bit and made Friends and stuff. I am not shy any more and feel good about my self.
I did date this girl that I was friends with for 6 mouths. She broke up with her bf and we ran into each other and started hang out. The out of the blue she called it off and soon after she had a new bf.That was my only sexual experience and to top it off she just kinda laid there for the most part. There was no passion and i did not even reach climax , but said she did reach climax.
I feel i might not be good enough to get a gf and do not want to be alone. I fear i will die alone and it scares me. I want to be dad some day and all that stuff.
BTW i know this is not first date info i will ever tell a girl but at some point down the road i might tell her but i have to feel like i can trust her.
a little long for me to wanna read… soo ill just answer the question that you've asked with no knowledge of what you put…
umm honestly if my boyfriend wanted to see a theripist i would just be as suportive as i can, he wouldnt be weak.. honestly i would see him stronger as ever because if he is seeing a theripist then hes obviously going through a lot and he just needs help and it shows he would have the strength to get help and to stop acting like nothings wrong.
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ladys would you think less of a guy if he sees a therapist? does he become weak in your eyes?
never,,that wud be so mean,,, we are all weak at some point in our life
i hope u get better soon..
absolutely not!
with the economy and society today trust me we all need much therapy, beside trust me everybody have anxiety and on pills these days.
it's great to actually face your problems to be a better person.
don't worry
You know what dude that are guys that never look for help and die lonely and bitter. I've seen a therapist for couples counseling and just for myself. I have told my gf ans she thinks its great I had the ability to acknowledge that i needed some help. So don't ever think it makes you weak for wanting to be a better person!
I understand how you feel as I am the female version of you. I dont want to die alone but I feel as though I will. I have had a rough time lately and getting older by the day, the dead end job, the constant cant please anybody, people dont call me or bother with me, I have relatives that think they know everything, I cant trust anyone, Ive asked my boss in a nice way to secure our work environment (it is not safe), I've had it with people and guys asking me personal questions, and the next person that irritates me will be in the wrong place. Im a perfectionist and somehow Ive screwed up my life. I now am this bitter old maid.