Need Help Moving Forward in My Life?
I need some help moving forward in my life. I'm a very self conscience person. I'm very worried about my looks mainy because I would give anything to be attractive in my eyes. I apparently don't see myself as others do. Most of the time I feel like I was a compete waste of life, that god should have given to some one who deserved to survive. I dont have a goal in life, nor have I finished school. Dropped out in 9th grade because I was an idiot. I want to take GED classes, but my problems keep me from being motivated whatsoever. In my mind I'm not smart enough to get my GED and that's the only thing that holds me back. I'm also having a problem looking at the brighter side of life. Im never happy, and for what reason? I have no idea. I'm always worried or emotional about something. And when emotions mix with worry, it becomes anxiety. Im a very mean person I think. I feel I make everyone angry, and I do. Sometimes I will be mad about something and then later realize that it was an idiotic thing to get mad about and I start to feel guilty about whoever I made angry/upset in the process. I also tend to worry about things a little too much, such as an arguement with my spouse over a stupid thing such as a movie, will send me off the edge. I will be suicidal, and I will begin to think I'm worthless, and that I will never amount to anything. I dont to be like this anymore. I just want to be at ease, peaceful. I want to be carefree, and I want to be able to make it through a tough break up, if it comes to that. Will some one please help me? This is my cry for help, I need some one to listen and help.
Suggestion:
First thing first.
I cant help you swim when you are drowning. I can only give you the some advice.
Secondly, your case is exactly like mine – I too felt like an alien.
But now I KNOW that I am different. I KNOW that I am not like others. I have learned to live with that.
Whenever I feel the world is against me, I just put on the headphone volume up and ignore the whole bulls**t around me.
It wont be easy for sure. It is easy to say – tough to do. Think of the beggars who are doing their best to LIVE!
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You said 'I' about 30 times in that text. I think u need to live life on the outside of urself if u know what i mean? Seems to me as if u analyse everything u do to see if it was a success or failure, and u look at everything that happens in life as to how it affects you.
Enjoy what happens – success or failure – u cant take trophies with u when u go, in the end its all about experiences! Try and see things that happen as experiences that you can add to ur collection – not as a success or failure. U think ur grand kids will want to hear about how u passed a maths exam? No they will want to hear about cool stuff that happened to u good or bad i reckon.
next thing that happens to u – really get in to it!
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