Should I Quit Going to Vocational School?

I quess this year has been the worst year of my life for me. My father died 6 month ago and it so hard to get motivated now at my school. last year i was one of the top students and got awards but now am a total loser. I dont really do a lot anymore. most of the time i dont even know what to do last year my friend was in the same work area as me and the teacher would tell everyone what to do and how to do things but now this i am the only one in my work area its like the teacher ignores me and helps the other students. he doesnt tell me what to do unless i ask him but none of the other students who i think are good at their craft and dont need as much help dont really have to ask because he is there helping them. the work area i choose wasnt very popular last year it was just me and my friend. some people worked with us but never stayed. this year i was going to change my area but then when all of the new kids came i got very discouraged they were all typical popular pretty girly girls and a coulpe of emos not wimpy wo as me emos the hard core cool kind. i decided to stay in my area then. i am the freak in the whole class. i feel like a soical leper. the girls sniker at me and i am sure there talking **** about me. there is this one girl who thinks she is the best worker there. and i guess she is because the teacher made here the leader of the club we have and sometimes she has to do things in my area. since am the only one doing what i do im in charge but she always has to challenge what i say and asks the teacher even though i told the same thing he is telling her to do. she does things her own way. and always question what i do. after the teacher told everyone their grades one person wanted to go on the computer so they asked me to get of on the one i was on even though there was others available. and when ignored her she side very loudly it isnt fair that there are some people not even doing work. and the rest of the students just looked at me like, i dont even know but i felt so inferior and below everyone else. i over heard the teachers talking about me saying that i dont deserve to get a certificate from the school and that they dont know whats wrong with me. my mom told them in the beginning of the school year that my dad died but i guess they forgot. my self esteem is so low i dont even see my self as a person anymore if feel like im not human or deserve anything. i think about suicide a lot and its just so hard. one time when i went to my regular school a girl told me that i was a stupid ***** and that i was nothing and told my friend who was also her friend that she was a stupid ***** to for knowing me. i am at the point that i believe everything people say about me. i am lost and i just dont know.what to do so should i quit vocational school or not? just thinking of going there makes me wanna cry

Noob…I'm very sorry that others in your school don't have the intelligence or understanding they should have. What you need to know is that every great and successful leader has one thing in common…they always stand out from the rest; they have to otherwise they become like everyone else. You are your own person and as such you need to understand that your uniqueness is incredibly valuable not only for you but for the rest of the world. I know that it's hard not to listen to what other people are saying but if you can somehow get past their ignorance and just focus on what you want to accomplish and not worry about others, you are gonna accomplish great things!! The only people who are stupid in this situation are the ones who are name calling…don't waste your time on their stupidness let them continue their ignorant ways and you just focus on your path to greatness. Don't even let the teachers affect your emotions…if they see you are reacting, they know they have gotten in your head. You are not inferior, you are not below anyone else…I'm sorry for the loss of your father and can only imagine how incredibly difficult that is. I know he is there with you right by your side, when you need strength remember that.

Stay strong and take it one day at a time you are destined to do great things!!